the lethargic man

i'm still alive.

2005-11-06T07:58:09Z

not dead.

just not online very much anymore.

I keep wanting to come on more, but I don't really have much to say or talk about on here.

Nothing ever happens.

working still, tomorrow I work til 9 then I get a day-off.

so instead of looking at the tab blink...

shopping day

2005-10-12T19:27:08Z

GST cheque's came yesterday, so instead of blowing it all on consumable resources like I usually do, yesterday I bought a 2.1 Multimedia Sound System. lol.

it was only 41$ and hooks up to my computer, tv, and ps2 and dvd player.

so far it pounds, but not loud enough yet to get the neighbours to complain.

Give me time though, today I'll be home alone for about 4 hours, so if you listen maybe you'll hear it.

other than that I'm on day off 3 of 4.

friday I go back to work.

Oh yes, I have a schedule change now

I work fri/sat/ morning and sun/tues night.

other than that I'm off monday, tuesday and wednesday.

it seems fun, but its less money.

failingenglish @ 2005-10-04T13:31:00

2005-10-04T20:34:29Z

so its not cancer

preliminary diagnosis said cancer but after my great uncle didn't die when they thought he would they explored further and discovered it is actually ....um.. I can't spell it so I'll sound it out.

seh row sis of the liver. and now instead of two hours he's got two days.

I'm off til friday morning now, which will give me some time to get over my flu, but its kind of bitter-sweet.

sidenote

Harmony, I had a dream that I paid for you to come visit and you loved it so much here you stayed.

I didn't get to pick up a phone card yet, but I will I swear. Also, I need your phone number if I expect to call you. I'm also guessing you don't want to put it down on LJ so we should meet up again on AIM or something.

I'll probably be checking in randomly the next couple of days. Hope to hear from you soon.

subject to change

2005-10-03T06:50:56Z

so I went out to the kitchen to get a drink of water and found my Aunt Margie sitting on the couch.

Strange. She lives in Lumby a good 8 hours away.

Turns out my Uncle Gino is dying of cancer and the doctors apparently gave him 2 ( two ) hours to live.

This is crazy.

Vancouver 3 San Jose 4 Final ( shootout )

2005-09-24T06:39:28Z

but what a way to lose.

I knew from the beginning that it was going to be a great game but I never thought it'd be this crazy!
I was on the edge of my seat the whole time and my voice is practically gone! I screamed so loud and boo-ed so hard at the stupid refs for calling penalties that weren't penelties. ( cost us the game.. )

but when a relatively unknown ( to me ) #18 Park, cut between the two San Jose defence and out-deked the Goaltender( khabibulen i think... ) to take a 3 to 2 lead in the 3rd I screamed so loud and jumped up and knocked over my pop-corn all under my seat.

what a great game.

Oh ya, and I also got a free t-shirt just for signing up for Vancouver Canuck's MasterCard. Pfft. Like they'll give -me- a credit card. ha! that'd be hilarious.

anyway, its late and I have to work tomorrow.

I almost forgot I had this thing again.

2005-09-13T20:38:21Z

I've been back from Kelowna for a week and a bit I'm not sure exactly, but I've been working everyday.
Yesterday was my day off but I enjoyed it with minor computer use mostly.

So instead of moving into Garden Court Estates ( its disgusting! ) we've found ( morelike Rhianna found ) a listing in the paper for a 3 bedroom 1 1/2 bath cable and utilities for 715$ a month. Garden Court wanted 750$ for a two bedroom 1 bath no utilities! Losers.

THe only issue is we don't know where this place is it yet. The ad didn't say so I'm thinking it might be far from work. And with no car, its gonna be hard to get to and from work.

Garden Court estates is right across the street from my work. So there's that convenience factor. But my friends and other acquantinces that live there say its dirty and the landlord is a bitch.

I'm conflicted. I don't want to walk an hour to work and back each day but I don't want to pay 40 to 60 dollars more to live in a crap-shack just so its a 1 minute walk to work.

God I hope this is close enough to walk to work. Like, even by the golf course or the shady tree is cool. North Yards is okay.

M'eh. We should be out of here by October 1st.

last call in Kelowna

2005-09-05T18:15:58Z

I'll be on the road probably in a few hours. Back to Squamish today.

I hear they've pulled " New Orleans is Sinking " from most radio stations so to rememdy that, I've been playing it most everyday.

school starts tomorrow, so at least my day will be slow. No one can rent when they're in school. but I start at 4:30pm so they'll be out of school tomorrow anyway... d'oh.

but anyway, I don't wanna talk about work.

i'm gonna go sit in the garage.

" I have my hands in the river
my feet back up on the banks
looked up to the lord above and say
hey man thanks.

sometimes I feel so good I gotta scream
she said " bryan baby I know exactly what you mean "
she said. "

pawn shopping in Kelowna

2005-09-03T22:47:50Z

so I picked up three movies and two PS2 games today

Going Overboard ( with Adam Sandler )
Space Balls
Big Lebowski

all on DVD for 20$ flat.

I also bought

Kingdom Hearts and
Simpsons Hit and Run for PS2

it was a good day for my only real day not doing anything.

failingenglish @ 2005-09-02T17:37:00

2005-09-03T00:26:03Z

well I'm in Kelowna, Westbank to be specific.

It was hot as hell the whole trip and now that I'm hereits rainy and there's lightening hitting the mountain across the lake.

I should be here until sunday when we goto my aunt's un Lumby then I should be coming home on monday so that I can work on tuesday.

Thus begins the relaxing.

my memory is muddy whats this river that I'm in?

2005-08-30T21:21:14Z

New Orleans is sinking man and I don't wanna swim.

Holy shit.

I'm thinking this could be one of those " map-altering storms "

the kind that leaves cities no longer there.

I even heard of some guy jumping to his death in the Super Dome! Its gonna take a while ( months if not years ) to rebuild.

failingenglish @ 2005-08-26T18:15:00

2005-08-27T01:17:04Z

figures.

the whole four minutes I'm outside today I get stung by a bee.

failingenglish @ 2005-08-25T23:47:00

2005-08-26T06:49:47Z

"At The Hundredth Meridian"

Me debunk an American myth?
And take my life in my hands?
Where the Great Plains begin at the hundredth meridian
At the hundredth meridian where the Great Plains begin

Driving down a corduroy road,
Weeds standing shoulder high
Ferris wheel is rusting off in the distance

[Chorus]

At the hundredth meridian
At the hundredth meridian
At the hundredth meridian where the great plains begin

Left alone to get gigantic
Hard, huge, and haunted
A generation so much dumber than it's parents
Came crashing through the window

A raven strains along the line of the road
Carrying a muddy, old skull the wires show their approval
Off down the distance

[Chorus]

I remember, I remember buffalo And I remember Hengelo
It would seem to me
I remember every single fucking thing I know
[
If I die of Vanity, promise me, promise me
That if they bury me some place I don't want to be
That you'll dig me up and transport me
Unceremoniously away from the swollen city breeze, garbage bag trees
Whispers of disease, and acts of enormity
And lower me slowly, sadly, and properly
Get Ry Cooder to sing my eulogy

[Chorus]
Where the Great Plains begin at
The hundredth meridian
At the hundredth meridian where the Great Plains begin

Driving down a corduroy road,
Weeds standing shoulder high
Ferris wheel is rusting off in the distance

[Chorus]

At the hundredth meridian
At the hundredth meridian
At the hundredth meridian where the great plains begin

Left alone to get gigantic
Hard, huge, and haunted
A generation so much dumber than it's parents
Came crashing through the window

A raven strains along the line of the road
Carrying a muddy, old skull the wires show their approval
Off down the distance

[Chorus]

I remember, I remember buffalo And I remember Hengelo
It would seem to me
I remember every single fucking thing I know

If I die of Vanity, promise me, promise me
That if they bury me some place I don't want to be
That you'll dig me up and transport me
Unceremoniously away from the swollen city breeze, garbage bag trees
Whispers of disease, and acts of enormity
And lower me slowly, sadly, and properly
Get Ry Cooder to sing my eulogy

what the hell is wrong with people!!

2005-08-26T06:23:59Z

so now I might not be able to go on my Vacation.

Nic just fucking quit. We've gone through five employees now in two months. God damn it.

Vincent has been here about 3 months now, Nic about two and a half.

Vincent has been there longer than anyone except me! Its fucking nuts.

Now with Nic gone we have two employees ( myself included ) and the boss. so how can I take 5 days off with only them to cover for me.

for fucks sake this is how I haven't been able to have a vacation all year.

The time was already booked off, so I should be able to go still, but the boss might ask me to stay.

I have to go though, its a family gathering thing and I have to be there. I just hope I don't have to quit to do it.
Harmony....

" the sun goes up and the sun goes down
take myself into the town
all I do I wanna do with you.

everyday I'm at my desk
everyday's gone like the rest
all I do I wanna do with you. "

failingenglish @ 2005-08-25T11:24:00

2005-08-25T18:34:04Z

Sitting in my room watching tv til 3:30 when I have to get out to work.

I was woke up at 10:30 today to heavy pounding on the ceiling. Dad is fixing the roof.

Rheanna had a good idea last night. for 775$ a month the three of us can get a two bed-room apartment. That works out to about 258$ a month and considering I make around 1100$ a month, that should be no problem!

So come mid-september or the beginning of October ( HOCKEY SEASON!!!!! ) I should be living on my own.

I can't wait to sit in my own livingroom with my own joints and watch hockey.

Anyone in Squish that gets as excited about the Canucks playing as much as I do, let me know and you can watch the games with me!

Anyway, nothing's happened yet today, so this post is short.

I get to goto work at 4:30pm today and replace Nic. Here's hoping he actually did stuff today.

"interesting and sophisticated
refusing to be celebrated.
its a monumental big-screen kiss
its so deep its meaningless.

well you'll just have to quit
and that'll be it
just then the stripper stopped in a coughing fit
she said sorry I can't go on with this.

well thats awful close
but thats not why
you're so hard done by.

it was a true cinema eclipse
you should see it before there's nothing left
in an epic too small to be tragic
you have to wait a minute cause its instamatic

yeah thats awful close
but thats not why
i'm so hard done by. "

Can't sleep, clown will eat me.

2005-08-24T08:55:10Z

today was fucking nuts.

I Got to work to find Nic ( the 16 year old waste of payroll ) didn't put anything away, didn't call anyone on the late list ( meaning it'll be twice as big for me tomorrow! ) and didn't write the names on the reserved movies so I didn't know what movie went to whom!

Gah, to top it all off today was the day that everybody's mother and their dog wanted to come watch a movie on a SUNNY day, cause we've had so many in a row that they don't care anymore! I don't get a day out in the sun again until Monday the 29th and damn it I'm gonna be at the lake with a few joints and some munchies and maybe some buddies. Thankfully John and Rheanna came in a bit before close and helped me put movies away. They're awesome.

Vincent ( the other employee ) is still on his five day vacation; Nic takes his upon Vincent's ( hereto on referred to as Vinnie ) return. I'm leaving on Nic's return. Kelowna bound for my Aunt Margie's birthday. Which happens to fall on my late grandfather's birthday. So the family is getting together to... well, drink I suppose.

We didn't have a funeral for grandpa. We all got together in Kelowna and Vernon and got hammered. My dad threw up from being so drunk. Or maybe it was his being in a hot-boxed van ( 11 occupants, himself included ) and being the only one not smoking. It doesn't matter. Apparently my Uncle Gino ( grandfather's name too. ) was kicked by a mule and fell down a hill. I wish I had seen that. I was too busy circulating the room pissed out of my mind.
Grandpa liked 151. We all had shots and toasted him. Needless to say, we got loud.

Anyway, this got too far off topic.

My trip to Kelowna is for the birthdays, but its also about relaxing. I haven't had a vacation since New Years 2004. I'm freakin' beat from working.

Speaking of being tired, I'm going to sleep.

" puffy lips.
glistening skin.
and everything comes rushing in.
we don't goto hell memories of us do.
and if you goto hell I'll still remember you. "

" fantastic gap
common space
open concept in your smiling face
we don't goto hell memories of us do.
and if you goto hell i'll still remember you "

" I thought you beat the death of inevitability to death just a little bit.
I thought you beat the inevitability of death to death just a little bit. "

new movie alert

2005-08-23T06:21:17Z

if you haven't already, I suggest you rent Layer Cake on Tuesday when it comes out.

poor drug dealer wants to retire but is forced into trying to find a buyer for 1,000,000 pills of E.

from the producers of Snatch and Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels.

it rocked.

other than that, I went into work a few minutes ago to return the movies that come out tomorrow and had to listen to my boss complain about the new kid he hired. It's not my fault if you hired him cause he's my grade 10 english teacher's son! It's not my fault he never stops listening to his music or wearing his hat. But I have to remind him of how to do everything over and over.

But anyway, I have to work tomorrow at 4:30pm. I'm getting sleepy so I think I'll goto bed or something. Who knows.

Day off.

2005-08-23T02:17:33Z

Today was fun. Kind of.

I went to John's house around one this afternoon and at around three we hit Browning Lake. It was chilly but it warmed up as I got used to it.

Other than that, we're here at John's watching Monday Night Raw. It's my only day off until next Monday but thats okay.

Not much else to say. Slow, relaxing day.

back from the dead. only, not dead... or -was- I?

2005-08-21T07:58:25Z

I just remembered I had a livejournal account. It had been so long since I have come here.

I have to admit though, my lack of interest still remains.

Not to much has happened in the time I've spent away. ( I'll find out how long it actually has been once I post this I guess. ) I've been working at Highland Video ( Justin's former job ) here in Squish still living at home, but am hoping to move out sometime in October. ( please god please )

mostly I came here to try to get a hold of Harmony again. So, if you're reading this, reply please. I've been thinking about you lately and was wondering what you're up to.

secondly, I realized at least here, I can keep in touch with some of my friends, as I have had little to no social interaction since I started working.

Anyway, I'll try to drop a line or so in here as much as I can. I have a trip coming up to Kelowna on the 1st of September ( yay ) so I won't be around then for a few days. Not that it matters though, if my livejournal is anything like it was when I last posted, no one will notice. )

mmm, something cheerful to go out on....

Layer Cake is coming out Tuesday. I have it now, looks good.

" and all the roads that lead us there are winding,
and all the lights that light the way are blinding.
there are many things that I would like to say to you
but I don't know how.
cause maybe,
you're gonna be the one that saves me.
and after all,
you're my wonderwall. "

HOLY WHAT THE MC FUCK!!!!?

2004-06-03T10:03:05Z

picture it.

Squamish, 2:35am.

Bryan walks out to his car from his buddy's house downtown, sits in his seat and looks at the mountain from his window. What does he see?

A FUCKING ORANGE BALL OF DOOM FLYING OVER THE MOUNTAIN AND DISSAPEARING AND THEN TWO BRIGHT YELLOW FLASHES OF LIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

needless to say, bryan didn't waste time and ran back to his buddy's house and pounded on the door. He was scared. He decided to spend the night with his sword near him.

David Letterman

2004-06-01T20:31:51Z

Wouldn't it be nice if I could be David Letterman
Wouldn't it be right if I could be your favourite tv personality.
Wouldn't it be sweet if I could laugh you to sleep
five nights a week

and I try as hard as I can
but I can never be
David Letterman

I know he knows you look up to him
but you don't visit his suite
I know I know this is what I missed
your eyes are just for me

When we can see how we could be
I still put trust in
faith is something so that I don't know
so I say

wouldn't it be nice if I could be David Letterman
Wouldn't it be right if I could your favourite tv personality.
Wouldn't it be sweet if I could laugh you to sleep.
Fives nights a week.

and I try as hard as I can
but I can never be
David Letterman.

wouldn't it be nice if I could be David Letterman
wouldn'it it be right if I could be your favourite tv personality.
wouldn't it be sweet if I could laugh you to sleep
five nights a week.

and I try as hard as I can
but I can never be
David Letterman.

James Marsters sings this. If you don't know who he is, he plays Spike on Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel.

Anyway, I thought I'd share. You should hear him cover Nirvana's Come As You Are.

failingenglish @ 2004-05-25T14:47:00

2004-05-25T21:47:23Z

my resume is only 3/4 of a page long and my skills summary is blank.

well, seems fitting since I'm only really applying at BK and A&W

EVERYBODY COMMENT!

2004-05-25T19:55:06Z

what're you all waiting for? DO IT!

failingenglish @ 2004-04-20T14:03:00

2004-04-20T21:04:31Z

When all the things that you've been thinking
has you so confused and so unglued
your head is spinning
well we've all felt the same inside
I've been on that ledge countless times
and I know what that feels like
you've on your own can't make it through this world all alone
is this thing on at all?
when all your friends don't have the answers
and you're so convinced that inch by inch
they've turned to strangers
we've all seen the different sides
no one hears even though you've talked all night
and I know what you feel like
can we really measure if we're any better
than that skyline that goes on and on forever on and on?

WE DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-04-04T05:39:56Z

it took us since 1993 but Vancouver Canucks have FINALLY won first place in their division, forcing Colorado into fourth or lower!

Canucks!!!! We're gonna win this year, I know it!

failingenglish @ 2004-04-01T11:36:00

2004-04-01T19:33:48Z

I was going to post something, but I decided not to.

*shrugs*